One of the most difficult things about parenting for me is actually following through with what I say I am going to do. I know the importance of consistency, yet sometimes hear empty threats coming out of my mouth. If you’re a parent, you probably know the kind I mean. “If you don’t start listening to me, you will never be allowed to have friends over as long as you live!” “If you don’t clean up this room, I am going to bag up your stuff and drop it off for kids who would actually appreciate it!” “If you don’t…I will…forever…never…always”
The thing is, my kids have caught on. They know that I don’t always follow through with what I say I will do. They know that I am especially likely to bend the rules if I am on an important phone call for example. While talking to my publisher or someone work related, I have to literally lock the door to my bedroom, then lock myself in the master bathroom so that they won’t all try to ask me for things that they know I would normally say “no” to. They know that the rule is not to interrupt me the rare time I am on the phone, but they do anyway because they also know that if they ask me for absurd things like candy, the unopened toy that we are saving for next week’s trip, pop, or playing on the computer in the middle of when they are supposed to be doing schoolwork, I may say “yes” just to get them to stop interrupting my important conversation or to avoid them making a loud scene which the person on the other end of the phone would be able to hear! What I am saying is that this is totally my fault! I know this.
So, I have vowed to change this for the sake of my kids. I will follow through. Last week was my first big experiment in follow through. I kept finding Halloween candy wrappers all over the house. When confronted, everyone would blame it one someone else (one of the benefits for them of living in a big family) and it was a struggle to even get them to pick it up. I warned them a few times that they needed to pick up their wrappers or they wouldn’t be able to have candy anymore (not a reasonable threat as I am sure that in their lifetime, they will have candy again, so not something I should have said). Then, I caught myself about to say it and stopped and made a decision to change the outcome of the situation. I carefully chose my words, made sure that ALL the kids heard me clearly and said, “If I find ONE more wrapper on the floor, ALL of the Halloween candy is going in the garbage”. Of course, my threats mean nothing to my kids because I have taught them that when it comes to things like this, I rarely follow through. Within 1/2 an hour of that conversation with them, I found 12 candy wrappers strewn about the house. I calmly got a garbage bag, went into the room where the Halloween stash was being kept and started filling the trash bag. I slowly gained an audience of wide-mouthed children, staring at me in disbelief. Before long, the tears started. Then, there were pleas and promises. I very quietly took them on a tour of the house and pointed out all the wrappers that had been left. I thought that I would feel badly for doing something so “mean”, but I just felt really satisfied. I knew that next Halloween, they would probably listen at the first warning about picking up their garbage.
It’s a start. As for the phone thing, I have a plan. I am going to sit the kids down and re-establish the rules for when mommy is on the phone. Then I am going to pre-warn a few of my friends and phone them and as soon as I get asked a question or there is screaming or fighting or interrupting me, get off immediately and follow through with giving an appropriate consequence. Wish me luck!
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